the absence &presence of love

I could never fall for you  not because I didn’t want to  not because I didn’t want you  I acknowledged the admiration you had for me  I paid attention to the ways  you tried to get mine  it didn’t go unnoticed  we went out and, you told your story  you opened up for me became […]

nothing in my closet is deceased nothing in my power is concerning  compromising my youth to gain, that high is heaven felt a lot to unpack from the road to truth & it concludes,   loving yourself is complicated  loving others leads you astray  jaded & bruised  a battery packed rage sabotaging every thought  yet nothing […]

if I saw you again i’d say…  you know there’s only one of you and me we resisted to keep the peace. i get it  but did our differences have you looking at me differently? i would ask… was it my lack of empathy,  was I too demanding? did I not say enough…about how our […]

Do you ever just look for a sign ? Tasting your tears & feeling the sweat from your overheated body is not enough  Reassurance from loved ones is not enough  In crowds I’m subdued, in silence I’m overwhelmed  My back is aching and aching from staring at the ceiling  & never rising unless It’s to […]

If you’re reading this in May of 2020, then you are well aware of what life has been during this pandemic. Most of us Americans and the rest of the world have been quarantined for the past three months to what now feels like a lifetime, and who knows how long this will carry out. […]

I don’t need accountability please just listen I should title this resentment The other seeds of you despise me for this idea that I got special treatment They don’t know you robbed me of the terms honest and decent They don’t have a clue When I gave my life to God as a sign of […]

I haven’t been the same since I haven’t felt the same since Wish I had been in love before Wish there was no such thing as past tense Wish I had witnessed a solitude of love from the two of which I was conceived Energy put to chase a vision, you never seen but you […]

I was terrified that if I sat too long in complete solitude my thoughts would haunt me If I stayed put, my conscious would rope “Half of this lifespan is complete, you haven’t reached your peak?” Misery loves company When do you think the devil spoke to me It was always the day before a […]

Recently Los Angeles, the Hip Hop community, and the world lost an angel due to gun violence. Conspiracies were tossed around, comparisons of the bond between him and his wife caused an uproar on social media, more violence was done in retaliation, and not enough condolences were made. Through all the smoke I took the time to reflect, […]

I can say that I admit when I’ve wronged someone else, but when my intentions are pure yet they are deceived as deceit…I’m defeated, my pride increases and you want an apology right ? You want me to acknowledge that I hurt you, that although we see through two different lens the perspective is not […]